An Occasional Insomniac

God….I envy those souls who can sleep for hours……..well, I hope that this does not even remotely insist that I don’t sleep long´….to be honest am popular (one could check what notorious means he ehe )…. for my Spanish slumbers, sleepa-holic or thats a gross combination of words, let us say somnaholic: to be etymologically right; or to be modest (MODEST! WHATEVER!!!) lets say somnaphilic.

My personal best until now has been 16hours*….God Bless Me, well people, this is how “spoilt” an un-parented child could get….so, for all the parents out there, who are waiting to send their children abroad for studies: Think Twice!!!, wooow, did u notice what I just did, amazing, how I have mastered the talent of creating awareness among the readers. STOP!, I heard it, you said: “if this right-up manages to find a reader in the first place”, this is a display of pure jealousy…soo typical, okee okee,I will cut the crap out . ehm by the way did u notice I just made a bunch of new words for English (English thondu aattavuttaangaleyyy)….Un-parented, sleepaholic..…phew….maaaaan, some people are just unbelievably talented, arent they??? I know if your curses could kill I would be long dead).

* The above is a condition quiet opposite to what you will call Insomnia.....

Unfortunately, am also a subject to occasional sleeplessness….suffering from a small degree of , one could call it an acute insomnia…but thanks to god that it happens only occasionally, nevertheless as regular as, once in a month, ATLEAST …..

But then, I am someone who has no big problems in working in the night, in fact all my life I had been more comfortable doing my studies and other work in the night (I hate to get up early in the morning, I am that lazy, is another reason). In fact I even worked for 3 months in Chennai on a night shift without any problem. So my understanding is that my bio-rhythms are good and in tune to work in the nights, am some kind of a night animal….nocturnal*….ehm there is another beautiful word Tamil contributes, which could actually characterize the condition……is called being a “Raa-Pisaasu”, well to those of you who don’t understand Tamil, sorry, I don’t think, I would give it away this time….do it yourself…. [: p]

* The above is some examples of Noctunal animals, and yes the lady in suit is... (yes you have guessed it right) is me...hehe

All my life, I had done my bulk of studying-for-exam in the night, wrote reports, applied for internships, watched television….etcetera, without having any problem. But those where the moments I had the necessity to work, an approaching deadline or a raging exam or an necessity could have been the reason for such an action…you know desi style: working at the eleventh hours is also a reason some times…well actually necessity is the mother of all the hard work I have done, If I had done anything of that type until now….

Talking about “sleepless”, I am reminded of Ekadesi in India, well Ekadesi is an auspicious day and it falls twice in the month, the most auspicious being the Vaikunda Ekadesi which falls in the Tamil month of Maargazhi. What we do on this day is we fast the whole day, no food ….absolutely nothing, no water (but sometimes an occasional fruit and some water may be permitted) and then one had to stay awake the whole night and break the fast the next day in the morning. If, one can accomplish this: meaning a direct trip to the heaven, of course after our life on earth. This night we try killing time like playing the great Paramapadam, he he eh gotcha: the Tamil version of Snake and the Ladder, with the thick fact bronze Indian Dice rolling across the floors (news: a rolling dice doesn’t gather any moss either; be it Indian, fat, or made of bronze or what ever: pudhiya thathuvam, 10,001). But what is cruel is Every time I have kept the fast, I had invariable felt terribly sleepy, that sleep which fails to come on ordinarily on common days, flirts with me in the Ekadesi days, such cruelty, Injustice personified………………

But then there are these totally unwelcome moments in the night, when I cannot fall asleep…I try and try and I try and then I try a little bit more only to accomplish….in vain…enlightenment that this is yet another of those sleepless nights…..but what is even worse you wake up and look at the rest of the family, sleeping like a happy family should…ehhhhhmmm….. Call it, heights of jealousy!!!!!

Yesterday was one of such nights, but only after coming to Deutschland the frequency of the attack (people! The acute insomnia) has increased and it is no good news having no family around even though the jealousy part is totally missing here…this occasional insomnia is like a limited edition book……comes in limited quantities….once in while but could keep you awake for the whole night….some times even the rest of the following day….(this is could probably be the best example of the thinnest parallelism…….I know, I know I am killing you in the name of writing blogs and you poor creatures have the time and patience to come this far in my blog till reading this sentence, I really appreciate it; cool it okee cool it, see it is my turn to write but the best part is :u know ur turn really comes you can pour all your vengeance in the commentary section….but still not smart enough, cause I get to moderate the comments ha huh).

I really tried to sleep. I had to work today, keeping that in mind and the fact that I had caught a bad cold just couple of days ago and was actually recovering from it, I really wanted to catch some good night sleep yesterday….ehm but…….I tried my best till 2.45 then I saw that there was no point going on this way, so I quit, and would u believe that I actually got up to "study": “Project Management: An Introduction based on Prince2”, well how insane could a person get….if infected by insomnia……Studying juzz because of a special incapability of falling asleep, occasionally, Gawd such a geek…..Call it SIN unforgivable!!!! Could any one be more morally fallen!!!

And now the story of how one thing leads to another: I finished my reading at 4 o clock, when my alarm rang, I turned it off with a sigh and then took a quick shower and then caught the 4.56 bus to catch the 5.34 S-Bahn to my office….and guess what I was at my at 6 o clock, a unique sight, to every ones shockl in my office….did a little bit of work and it is 10.56 now still no traces of sleep instead for the occasional yawning…..well well….such a mundane thing, right, but cannot stop discussing it, I am sure there are many more such nights in the future, have no idea, how I would kill them….I am happy, cause it could be worse atleast i am not a somniloquist (sleep-talking) nor even worse a somnambulist (sleep-walker), (time for another pathetic joke: if somnambulism is sleep-walking , what could be lunambulism: YES you are right moon-walking), okee okee, relax....relax, i am finishing now, i promise......... if all your vengance and anger an curse, keeps me alive then I shall come up with more of such documented torutre, in the name of blogs. Thats All Folks!!!

P.S: I am expecting some good sleep today, at least, let me s(l)ee(p